Intolerant?!?

20 May 2011 Leave a Comment

by MYSTIC in About me Tags: boyfriends, G, intolerance, Old enemies

I was tickled the other day when a friend of mine who was staying me for a couple of days woke up one morning and asked me why I am intolerant of boyfriends. I must admit that got me off guard but my friend went on to explain that I am not intolerant in the sense of racism or tribalism or any other of those …isms but in the sense that I generally carry my life so independently that a man would think that I do not want to be with him. Apparently I seem to have a comfort zone in my system of doing things that a man does not fit in the picture. I found that hilarious.

But 2 days down the line I find myself still reflecting on that statement, I am not sure why its bothering me so much but it is. I decided to stop crazing around about whether or not I should be having a boyfriend and decided to concentrate more on other important things in my life like my job and since there have not been that many weddings to attend and depress me in that sense all has been well. Though honestly it seems that weddings have been replaced by funerals. within this one week there have been 3 funerals of completely unrelated people but who are linked to me I one way or another. I digress…

I do not think the word intolerant has any positiveness linked to it in anyway so in retrospect maybe this thing is disturbing me because that is not a word that i want associated with me. I like pleasantness and I will not accept that unpleasant adjective as a word that would describe me. So what do I do about it? I have to try as hard as I can to kill that aura of intolerance for men, after all, I will one day want to end up living with one of them for the rest of my life and if I will not be able to tolerate them how will I find him or keep him

I am taking a conscious decision to not be intolerant!

In other news KWFT’s G reached out once again. He is in mourning since his dad passed on and will be buried tomorrow (am still contemplating attending the funeral). I do not understand if its the grief but he made me stay on after the mini fundraiser to offset the medical bills for the old man and together with his pals from high school we went for drinks. I wonder where this sudden streak of politeness for me has come from. %)

In the same meeting I also met my former boss, the pain in the ass. He put up a show for other faces but took me to the side to make it clear that he still holds a grudge against me. I laughed straight into his face. He is so childish! He apparently wants to call me for a meeting to discuss how I smeared his reputation this coming week. Of course I know he will not call but I think it would be a rather interesting conversation if he indeed did call. I would go just to laugh on his face again like to make him feel stupid and juvenile, which he is.